wtf!

maybe its because yesterday, i played too hard and doesnt sleep well...i feels tired and doesnt have any mood to do anything and feels irritating...i asked him about the lunch today, and he said cannot, and i..replied a msg to shows that i am angry to him..no reply from him afterward..
i was sitting there trying calm myself down and did some revision for exams...those guys was so noisy and kept saying me with those annoying words..huh! feels like slapping on them..
exams goes like how it should...my head is blank and sleepy...hmm..not a good signs to me...
lol..i just feels very bad today...sucks! aiks, i am tired for two days already, sleep!

yesterday was fun!

friends and i followed the history society on a trip to terengganu..we paid rm20 for it...the teacher said, only 40 students can take part..she came to our class to asked about this one day (months ago)..we are so excited and ask our friends from other class to go along..so, yesterday we went to terengganu..=.='
ok, 40 persons, organized by history society..but what a joke, theres only about 10 of us was the member of the society...and almost all of us is from form 4, and we are all very closed...and we are all the craziest in form 4..wakakakaka...
first station, masjid crystal, 11.40am-12.40pm
me, hui ling, siew see, hwee ping, wisni and arr vin..the group of yell! duhhh...because, wherever we go, we shouted..haha..at there, we went for paddling..ahhh here, arrr there...insane! the lake was not very big, so, people around there can hear us very clearly..ish ish...tired and hungry after that..haha..
next, bazaar and pasar payang, 1.oopm-2.30pm
wtf! we walked for almost 15minutes to find food at the pasar payang, and we regretted, the food there was, eham! we shouldnt followed the teacher, but our friends, they go to bazaar there..there were more clean and...singapore's star were shooting for drama there...loll...after the lunch there, we ran to bazaar...and and, we took photos with the actor and actress, although we dono their name...haha...the actor was so handsome! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! shouted again in the public...zzZ...everyone there laughed at us, gila punya they think..wakakaka...on the bus, all of us discussed about it, and...ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! shouted again...again and again...
next, giant, 3.20pm-4.20pm
omg, my legs feels so pain that time, so i decided to buy a pair of slipper to change...uhh! feels more cool after wearing the slipper..we just simply walked inside the giant(wanted to feels the aircond actually)...and bought something to cool us down...toilet as well...nothing special at there, but as usual, nonstop yelling...hahaha....insane!
last stop, kerepok lekor, 4.30pm-5.00pm
hmm...i didn went down to buy, just asked my friend to help...we just stay on the bus and talk, eat and....yell! lolllll...so mush fun on the bus...took photos, and knew try to know more about friends from the other classes...and shouts together...hahahaha...we enjoy shouting..
we never stop yelling and talking since 8.00am-8.00pm..12hours! really insane! but we love it..all were tired and doesnt want to think about the examination on the next day...go home, bathe, and sleep...no time for revision also..we enjoy a lot..and now still waiting for the photos from our friends who bring the camera...wooh!! so excited!

luckily..

i found out that i am really useless..
i called him last night..
talked in an impatient tone...
he knew that i am unhappy with him..
but he is a guy that never show his care to anyone..
like a chinese word: 爱你在心里口难开
yeah, thats true..
that is the best word to say about him..
he said he is going to gives his mum a big surprise..
i told him, i would like you to give me a surprise too..
but the problem is, you doesnt want to see me..
he got angry, woohoo..damn scary..xP
he scolded me about that...
know what? i love when he were scolding me..
not because he looks cute or sounds cute...
its because, he never scold me!
this morning, he sent me a message..
showed me his apology...
'sorry for talked so loudly to you last night'
he still care for me, right?
hope that he can spend a little time for me on the coming sunday..
i miss him a lot..dreamed about him too..
addicted to him...
although he is not my dream guy..=.='
but he is more than enough for me...

cold tonight..
and this make me feels, lonely...
the storm outside, make me feels scare...
waiting for his call..
but well, i made my stupid decision, to call him..
however, he didn answered the phone..
went out, i guess...
or maybe, he is trying to avoid me...
anti-lili??? =.=
what the hell is so wrong to love someone deeply??
i admit, i addicted on him...with no reason..
i am tired of waiting the phone everyday..
and being the person who is putting so much effort on a relationship is tiring..
i fed up...i am giving up...

算了吧，就这样忘了吧。。。

该放就放，再想也没有用。。。

你总该为自己想想未来。。。

the lyrics is telling me to give up..

feels like crying inside my heart...

should i continue to wait for your precious phone call???

or just forget about you??

it is too much my dear...

i love you, and i wish for your love too..

i miss you..

i will collapse one day..

why should we suffer like this?! =.=
why am i so timid??
i shouldnt beg him back, right?
it just making me more upset..
but i miss him..love him alot...
he is everything..
think of him every seconds...
kai long kai long kai long...
aiks! so bothering...
am i so annoying to you?
who am i to you actually?
i didn perform the way you want me to?
do you still love me?
can you treat me the way you should? i mean, the way a boyfriend treat his girlfriend..
seems like i am the one who done everything to maintain this relationship..u didn care much about it...i am tired..
can you do something on it too?
or maybe we should stop it here?
however, i dont want this to happen...
i want to yours till forever...
i didn see you for a month already...
you know what, it feels like a year..!
i hate the feelings of missing you...
wish to see you as soon as possible...
but the problem is, you doesnt act like you want to..
home is all you want...
i just need your 1 hour...
an hour will grab away your precious life?
that 1 hour will make me happy for life..
dont you want to meet me too?
why?
dont you miss me too?
why just me who suffering that way?
why cant you make me happy?
i want my boyfriend to love me too...
just other girls...need the care from their lover..
i hope that you will realize it one day...
realize that, there's a girl, loving you..
still waiting for you to save her....
i love you dear...
miss you as well...
take care darling..

life and love..

well..didn get my blog updated for quite a long time..
all kinda matter happening everyday...
and it corrupts my emotion..
sometimes crazy..
sometimes joyful...
sometimes upset...
and sometimes worry..
life is just so, wonderful??
hmm..it is a game!
however, we have no choice but to accept the challenge...
yet, we should love it...
some says, love is the most important in our life..
some says, love is just nothing, money is what we need..
and some of them says, we only need ourself to live..
for me, the most important thing is FRIENDS..
let the FAMILY to be second..
third comes the LOVE...
we cant live without friends and family right???
love? yeah, it is important as well..
but, it is dangerous..because "love is blind"..lolx
it's true! hey girls, dont ever trust a guy...
so hard to found a guy who can really love you...
most of them just take girl as their toy..
find you when they need you..
left you aside when there's another toy...
oh guys..please...take a good look on your own girlfiend..
see, how good they are..
they are still waiting you at home...
learn to appreciate your girl..she's yours...

good!!!!

If you've got a run of parties and functions over several nights, you'll probably have to forfeit at least a few of the recommended seven or eight hours sleep a night. The problem is, a few late nights in a row can lead to ''sleep debt,'' leaving us fatigued, irritable and unfocused.

The good news is that sleep debt can be repaid. Firstly, if you know you have a few big nights ahead, try to tack an extra hour onto your nightly sleep pattern so that you have some sleep hours in the bank. Once the merry-go-round has stopped, make sure you get some catch-up sleep again, by getting a couple of early nights in a row and making sure you get a minimum of seven to eight hours in the nights following.

i can sleep more in the weekends...to pay my 'sleep dept'...hahahaha