hope it is true..

oh dear, know what...
i dream of you everynight...
i felt so weird....
really, almost everynight i saw you in my dream...
hehe..quite funny also..
sweet too!! xD
i missed you...

our class, 4sc2

look! its 4sc2...haha..sometimes, i felt that, our class has get over many many of problems, it is kinda funny because all the problems caused by our childishness...zzZ..we might looks like we are all very close to each other..yes, it is true, but not all of us are friends...maybe its because of those problems..some of them still cannot forgive each other..but luckily, it wont affect our image...haha..we keep our image in a very good condition, i mean the image of friendships...lol...the photo has proved it..we all love that photo..every year, when there were to takes photographs for class, some pupils would absents for some reasons...but this year is special, 4sc2 2009, nobody absent..every one came for our precious moment..if we were to compare to other classes, we are the craziest among them..hahaha...even the teacher joined us! we called our class "rocks class!" =.=' i really no idea why is it happened...but i like it..xD 4sc2 rocks!

no guts..

感到好笨拙。。
我没胆子说分手。。。
听到你的声音，
我就感到很舍不得。。
好爱好爱。。好爱好爱。。
好像第一次谈恋爱的感觉。。
很妙，很特别。。
我爱你，这三个字。。
虽然彼此都未曾说给对方。。
但，你我，比谁都还要清楚。。
我常告诉你，我想你。。
相信我，我真得很想你。。。
多么希望你也跟我一样，想念。。
思念是一种病。。
这句话果然没错。。
我整个人，就好像病了一样。。
一点胃口都没有。。。
相思病，我的一位朋友开玩笑的说到。。
我想，我真的是得了相思病吧。。
真是的！为什么是我呢？？
以前，我都认为说青春期恋爱。。。
只是拉拉小手，说说情话。。
看来，它没那么简单吧。。
它已改变了我。。
把我给变弱了。。
我那大大的胆子呢？豪爽的个性呢？
这次，我真的玩大了。。
我脱不了身了，怎么办呢？
烦啊！！！

what should i do now?

waiting for your call...
waiting...
wait...
......
....
...
look at the phone...
waiting for the phone to ring...
msn hasn't calls..
no reply from you on facebook...
are you so mad at me?
am i the one who need to be sorry?
hey, please..
think of me...
i am the one who need to be love...

我可以感觉到。。
都是我一厢情愿的。。
如果。。
如果这一切都未曾发生，那该多好。。
如果。。。
我可以不那么主动，那该多好。。。
我知道，我昨晚是有点情绪化。。
不过，我真得很希望可得到你的关心。。。
真的真的。。很希望，你还是爱我的。。。

should i says sorry to you?

last night was a nightmare for me..
i cant control my emotion...
felt sorry for that...
i scolded you..
i know you are angry...
but, hey! i need your concern...
show some love to me..
i am in the real bad mood..
and you never ask and comfort...
now, who is going to say sorry???
me? again???
i am the one who always took the first step to say sorry..
why didn you be the one who take action??
i am really tired..shall we stop it here?
or wait for one of us to walk forward?
why cant you be more gentlemen?

I can feels it..

hmm..are we going to end this story??
i can feels that you doesnt like me anymore...
does my feeling's true? is it true??
can i know how you feel? can i??
can you tell me? please..
who am i to you?
am i still your girlfriend??
its your birthday today..
how i wish i can celebrates it with you...
i am unhappy today...
i just get scolded by my father...
can you comfort me? like you did it last time...
i need you now...can you make it for me??

i guess i can just shout out my feelings through here..
but all i have done, you dont know..
you dont even want to know..
where are you now?
who helps you to celebrate your birthday?
how's your day?
did you feels better today?? still pain???
i am so worried about you..
you should take care of yourself...
be careful.....

totally disappointed!

feels like wana punish myself badly..
term test results are out..
i am going to kill myself for it...
the results is totally BAD!
i told myself not to cry for it..
i didn cry...but i cant smile at all...
well, i know its my fault..
felt so sorry to myself...
and my parents as well...
sorry for didn took it seriously..
SORRY!!
next exam will be the last exam for this year..
and it will be a test for myself..
if i done it badly...hmm
then its time to think about letting him down...
admit it, he is everything now...
cant concentrate in anthing...just him...
this time, i am serious...
i want to study hard!!!