都怪我心太软

怎么办呢？明明就已经答应自己，不可以再见他了。咳。。。烦啊！他总是在我脑海里跑来跑去，向坚持不见他都难。真的搞不懂他心里到底在想什么。说分手的也是他，拉着我的手不放的也是他。怎么搞的！啊！！！怎么办怎么办？！！！

one week left.

holiday soon! final exam still havent finish, but, after the biology and physics tests, i felt more relax already. but chemistry and addmaths still ahead. zzz. hmm. suddenly feels like, "huh? holiday? uhhmm...i dont want...it will be very bored..." not very clear about my feelings right now. i want to be at home, alone. want to tell everyone to leave me alone, just..ignore me for awhile. at the same time, i thinks that, how good if i can gather along with my girls and forget about all those damn shit problems...sigh..he's back for a week. wanted to see him, badly. but...no way! i dont want to ask him to come for me, it is so embarrassing. just wait as if he ask me for a date. lol. its all about face-saving. so stupid.

那些回忆依然是那么的清晰

i can still remember how we met for the first time. it was chinese new year, and my parents goes overseas. i was so bad to do that. but i will never regret for doing it. that was the time, i fell in love with you. love in the first sight, it sounds stupid actually. when we went out for the second or maybe the third time, i hold your hand. lol. you let go of me using the most stupid way i ever seen. i cant stop laughing about it everytime i think about it. how cute you are. remember our first date? we went to the beach. PCB, you said, because it is the nearest beach. ah, lazy you. valentines, you cant celebrates it with me, basketball match at KL that day. you called me after the match, you were window shopping that time, and you asked me about what i want for valentines, i said, i dont need anything, but you bought a purse for me. thank you, i love it so much. all the memories, the good times we've been through together, i will always remember, and i never want to forget them. they are just too nice for me. thanks for your eight months.   always available for you, just for you.

the sun came out today.

kinda warm today. not too cold and not too hot, i like it. honestly, in this kinda weather, it is the best time to do chores. i was thinking about doing something else like, cleaning my messy and dusty room, but not sitting here and online. i want to get away from this fucking stupid laptop. oh man, its exam larh...study please...last year, someone told me that, i will addicted to my computer someday. that time, i promised him i wont. but hmm..looks like, he's right, totally right about it. wtf! this is crazy..whole day, nothing but online...what the hell am i doing now?! fuck off from this stupid laptop and go get yourself ready for tomorrow's exam!! stupid bitch!!!!!! argh!!!!

cold cold night.

raining. cold. sigh. this makes me think alots..how is he now? hmm...its raining these days, hope he is fine. aiks! stop thinking about that stupid guy. ah, flood is coming to kb. is it a good news?! if there's flood, we can have an early holiday, but, what about the exam? do we need to come to school within the year end holiday just to take the exam??! i dont think this is a good idea. and if really flooded, i got to cancel my plan to go to johor, but i already bought the ticket! wahseh, very mao dun leh...........

two of my new boy friends.

not boyfriend, but boys friends. they are so sweeeeeeet. well. they accompanied me as i cried for my failure love. it is still nice to have such a friends. we dont know each other very well, but they comforts me like we are best friends. they called me 2 times a day respectively for two days,  friday and saturday. thanks them for being with me and concerning about me. it is just so good to have friends.