I'm changing

I'm changing, into a full of hatred gurl..
i became irritating...everyone who younger than me became my victim..
sometimes, i feel pity to them...
but i just can't control myself...I'm sorry...
i don't know why i m changing...
i'm felt so sorry, so sad for this...
i wan to be like before...a happy happy girl...
before this, i have so much friends....
i'm happy everyday, laugh everyday, eat much everyday....
but now, my friend leave me, one by one...
less laughter on me...no appetite...
my weight decreases...i'm thinner and thinner...
i'm worry of my health, and my mental of coz...
i can just worry...no one know my situation, no one concern me...
HELP!!! I'M DESPERATE FOR LOVE...
love me more!!!!!!!!!!